Yesterday was one of those days where I found myself stuck on the couch, barely able to move.  It wasn’t from an extra hard workout (I actually didn’t make it to crossfit yesterday), but I seemed to be paralyzed by all of the things swimming around in my head. As I sat there with Catherine by my side, happily playing with one of her toys, I realized that I was crying and I wasn’t 100% sure why.

I’ve just felt overwhelmed recently and it wasn’t until I was talking with Ben yesterday afternoon that we realized that maybe everything swirling around in my head needed to find its way out… at least onto a piece of paper.  So, a couple of hours later, in a house full of nothing but the gentle sound of Catherine’s noise machine through her monitor, I sat down with a pencil and paper and started writing.  Everything that’s been on my mental to-do list was written down and so far, I have a full page and a few lines of a second page with things that I need/want to do.

Clearly if it’s seen as a to-do list, anyone would be overwhelmed.  Which is why I called it my “Get it Outta My Head” list instead.  These pages give me the freedom to just write things down as they come to mind without the pressure of having to get them done at any certain point.  Katelyn James has talked about a list like this before, but today I finally felt the NEED for it!

My plan is that as I make my to-do list on any given day (Justin & Mary call them Win the Day lists) and I feel like I can get some or several of these things finished, they can get marked off the big list.  But until then, I’m only letting myself view this as a waiting list of sorts.

I’m still in a little bit of a funk, but last night I strapped Catherine onto me in the Ergo and went outside with my camera to get some photos of our side yard.  The light is always so pretty coming through the trees in the evening and the idea of capturing it for no reason other than wanting to see it through my lens was exactly what I needed.  Plus, it was pretty fun showing Catherine what was on the back of my camera after each click of the shutter!